Anata e no Tegami

あなたへ

ねえ、おぼえますか?
The first day we met,
It was at a place on one fine day with a nice breeze.
The waves are sound nice and the sun was warm.
Do you know,
the night of that day, I dreamed about you.
In my dream, the two of us were standing in front of a large deep hole.
It kind of dark, and I don't know what its content.
Were we walking on the path through that hole? I don't remember. The memory of that dream is fading away.
Then, on the same dream, as I remember, we walk on a road. It was some quiet road but we did't walk just the two of us. There were some people who lead us.
Were we going to a temple? I think, I remember something about temple from that dream.

Do you know,
God is always very kind to me.
When some important things are going to happen,
He gives me a lot of message through dream.
Sometimes, He can become somehow persistant because I am quite clueless and stubborn.
But, the truth is, I don't even understand the meaning of the dream.
I complain to God a lot, saying that I don't understand and to give me a real message. Lol
The last time I complain while said, "just don't give me anymore dream, I don't want to care anymore!"
That was when I was too tired of night that full of dream.
Then, after that, I got less and less dream, even if a dream come to me, I'll just forget it the second I open my eyes.
"Ah, I think I dreamed about something but can't remember a single thing about it", is what I usually think.
But then, a dream that contains a message come to me again. It's only a very very very very very important message.
Then, I think, God wants to tell me something about you. Because you are an important person for me.

Do you know,
A few years ago, I dreamed a lot about temples. Most of them are temples with a big beringin, one of them was in a grave.
I don't remember when it is, but the last temple appeared in my dream was a big temple with a high black wall. The wall was covered with some kind of plant, and inside the temple there was a very big beringin that cover almost all of the upper of the temple.
Until now, I don't know if that temple really exist or not.
Then, along with the dream of that temple, I dream about a person, a man. He is a tall with a white skin man. He wear Balinese traditional clothes standing in the gate of a small temple, it was a white and quiet temple.
I don't remember his face or what kind of expression he made.
"Who are you?"
Who is he?
I don't know.
But I think, he is the one that I'm waiting for my whole life.

Now, I am hoping that the man is you.
You come to my life in such a right time.
And the important thing is that "I fall in love with you"
You know that a thing called Love is not an easy thing. It's not about a word.
It's a feeling.
That's why, someday, I'll properly convey my feeling tiward you.
That's why, please wait for me.
Because, I've been waiting for you my whole life.
But, there's also a question, is that really you?

The truth is, I don't care about such thing anymore. The one I love is you, so I'll just love you. I want to spend my life with you, to support you and serve you as my life partner. 🌸🍀

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