When Praying, My Tears Suddenly Flowing

It's fullmoon.
Tonight, there'll be a lunar eclipse.
Seems like I can't see it.
It's start in the middle of the night, I might be sleeping soundly by then. Lol

It's fullmoon.
When praying at my family temple, praying to my ancestor, when I call my grandfather dan grandmother, suddenly my tears flowing. Even when I write this blog, I can't hold my tears.
I'm not praying everyday, nor call for my ancestor everyday. But, I know they are watch over me and my family from their place without saying anything.
The family matters, the burden I have, do they know about it?
When praying, I become selfish. I pray for only good things to happen for my entire family member, my brother, my sister, and my parents.
What is this?
Even though I pray to the heart content, even though I pray with a heartache, even though I cry out loud, for my parents nothing good happen.
Just what is wrong?
My heart broken can't be repair just with praying.
The problem is too complicated to be solved. I know that. I think, that is the only reason for my tears, because I can't do anything. Just praying.

It's fullmoon, so please give a little shine to the heart of every person that I love.
The only thing I can do is just praying.