You Are the Type of Person Who is Late Getting Married

When I was a university student, a friend of mine told me that.

"You are the type of person who is late getting married."

I asked him why, but he only said "It's just like that"

What the hell?

At that time, I had a boyfriend, but it was surely seemed like I will not getting married soon. I don't know why but it's just feel like that.

Then, until now I'm not getting married yet. The worst thing is I don't even have a boyfriend. I do have a person I like but it doesn't seem to be going well. I might get rejected already without I noticing it. Because I'm too clueless.

As I write the other day that my world is slower than other people's, it is the truth. Because, there's a lot of thing that really hard to understand, and I am too slow to understand. Somehow, it looks like I can't catch up other people's pace. So, I always end up in my own pace.

I may look like an ignorant person. But, in my point of view, I can see things clearly, I just don't want to show that to other people. I care to other people with my own way.

Then, will there be a person who is understand my personality? If there's one, I want him to make me fall in love with him.

Is this what my friend try to tell me long ago? The reason why I will late getting married? Because I didn't fall in love with my boyfriend? I did feel like that though.

Somehow, I feel grateful that I'm not married yet. I think I understand my own self a bit better now. The reason of my sadness and unhappiness is because I don't fall in love. I want to be catched by love. A true love.

But then, when I got my rejection, I think about it more and more. So, what if, the person you are fallen in love with doesn't fall in love with you back? That's the problem.

It is really sad but also good opportunity. To be able to fall in love, a lot of thing to be learnt. The feeling that has nowhere to go. It's true that it is really sad.

I think it'll not easy to move forward now, or at least I have to make sure that I have no chance anymore. If I were to get rejected, I want to get rejected properly. That's why, I'm not waiting but I also couldn't go. I think, I'll let myself be this way for a while. Because, fall in love is a rare opportunity for me. I'll treasure it.

When is the time for me to meet with my destinied one? A person who is bonded with me by the red string? Is that person exist? What should I do to meet him?